Tuesday, 1 February 2011

Two 'conversations'

Last night I had two encounters which disturbed me. I'm hoping that these disturbances will allow me to grow.

The first was a rather sad encounter with someone who I've come to respect. In many ways I see a lot of myself in her, she seems to be living in perpetual darkness -maybe it's hormones talking but I was touched by her apparent inability to enjoy the good things in life.

I know that I share so many of the same sadnesses and frustrations. I want to help her!

The second encounter was with someone I have known for many years. It was maybe an attempt at humour that I read wrong. I was posting some silly comment on facebook about Derren Brown and being in love. Actually they were two statements totally unrelated cryptically posted together. The response that I got was an offhand comment about him being gay so I had no chance -as if there was some possibility of my getting together with him.

So anyway here I am musing in bed about people and the way we handle one another and then I realised, I still don't truly love myself, there are still parts of me that I'm struggling to accept. Yes it is an ongoing process learning to love oneself. Hopefully I am a step closer. And by the way, it doesn't matter if Derren Brown is gay, because So am I! I didn't post this reply on FB because that is my business the only other person who needs to be concerned with that is my partner, when she steps into my life.



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Location:In bed, trying to get some sleep.

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